Random Musings

The Blimeys

My heart still cries for you...
The beautiful evenings, beautiful rains and the beautiful mornings used to bring peace and serenity to my soul also seems ruthless. They bring back the memories of the beautiful moments which were once the reason of my happiness- the real happiness that emanates directly from the heart.

The memoirs of the past brings a teary smile.
The images of you flashes my mind every now and then.
I see myself laughing with you.
The reason for my happiness was you.
This is the time when I look at my own siblings having happy times ...I feel jealous.
Just intending to change my mind I go through some photographs and videos in my laptop...
Those little funny things between us makes me laugh...
And as soon as I laugh ...The sadness in me, which has become powerful tries to suppress my smile.
These memories which were once beautiful have now become treacherous .
These memories activates my tear glands.
But with all its might ...the happiness which I crave for,tries to fight with this sadness just like a soldier tries to defend its country.
it still tries...
But with  few of the gashes ...sadness wins defeating my attempts to smile...
And there comes the tears trickling down my cheeks, with my heart aching as if somebody has stabbed it...